Tuesday, 22 February 2011
On the Precipice
I woke up this morning with tremendous energy. Year Zero began badly but I felt as though the first day was almost like I was cleansing myself of the old demons. Best to get them out of the way on day one so I can move forward freely. Today, I was 100% certain that I would stick to my strategy and things would start to improve.
Kohlschreiber v Troicki
Great start, just what I needed. Thought about going back in for more profit but realised I just needed to get a win of any kind and left it.
Lopez v Lu
Another splendid trade but sod's law, Lu retired at 5-0. One more game, Lu, one more game!! Where's your tennis etiquette? FINISH THE SET! Is it just me or are players now deliberately retiring BEFORE the end of the set? This is the 5th retirement I've seen recently with the score one game away from the set. Maybe they all realise what it means in terms of betting and voids? I wasn't happy but these things happen, it was just my current luck that it would happen just when I was starting to get some momentum. Empty pot for The Sultan.
Pennetta v Zheng
I have to hold my hand up and admit that I did not follow my strategy to the letter here. However, there were extenuating circumstances which threw up an opportunity I felt was too good to ignore. Sometimes you need to adapt your strategy to take into account unusual opportunities and so I felt vindicated as I was 99% sure this move would work. Plus, I badly needed a good win as I was starting to feel agitated after the Lu retirement!
Hantuchova v Azarenka
The first time my anger spilled out today. I had a decent green but let it slide back to a red. After that, nothing I did seemed to go my way and I was stressed to the max. So I left the PC, hit a few walls, had a cuppa tea and returned to the final set and whittled down the red. I kept my head at least, didn't do anything drastic but the loss of momentum I was gaining was a real downer.
Youhzny v Simon
Just completely lost it. Didn't stick to my strategy and didn't rectify the mistake immediately. Decided to just red out for £125 and not risk making it worse. Again, I was too impatient - I did something I don't think I have ever even done before, that's how stupid it was. This is it now. One more major mistake and I'm dead and buried.
Jovanovski v Mirza
Well I've gotta tell you guys, I thought it was all over. I followed my strategy but nothing was going my way, just like the Azarenka game. I lost my head and started putting in risky trades, digging myself even deeper. I don't know how I got out of it, it is all a blur. Towards the end of the match I suddenly saw light at the end of the tunnel and managed to manoeuvre my way out for a good win. I'm still hanging on in there by the skin of my teeth!
Dulko v Tatishvilli
Honestly don't know what I was thinking here. Foolish, just foolish.
Starace v Cuevas
A desperate straight bet. It lost.
The prognosis? Year Zero isn't working! I think it's because of the added pressure I now have because I am down to the last of my remaining funds. I think this has made me even more impatient to get involved and start racking up profit. I start the day fine but once one or two things go against me, the pressure builds and I go and do something stupid, expecting the win and not preparing for when it goes wrong. By the time I do something about it, it's too late - huge red.
But at this stage, there really is nothing more I can change. I guess mentally, I just don't have it and I never will. I don't even have the enthusiasm anymore. The last two bets were just hopeless chasing, nothing to do with trading. I may return tomorrow, I may not. Right now, Centre Court Trading is just about over.